Upsets and Downsets

Hey,
How are you? 2010 aren't great at all. it is another hectic and fast paced flying time. 2010 is gonna end soon then comes 2011.. another new year is not so much a surprise.
It is what will be done and had been taken place will make the year a joyous and fruit bearing year.
In my birthday 2010, my auntie and uncle set up a birthday dinner with me. They prank me said that their printer or computer got problems. But at the same time I have other important thing to be done. I was really touched by what they have done. I am in a total surprise my auntie and uncle know how to joke.. They are always strict but kind at heart not in jokes..
My uncle is good and humble God fearing guy. I wished I have dad like him, but it is fate that calls. Sometimes I wonder What if ..... have happened. Could my life be more easier and more happier than what I have now?
Sometimes humans being just can't comprehend what is beneath the other person's feelings.. I hate a guy in my class always talks about my past. But I didn't hate him 100% just hate him whenever I see him. I hate him especially when he opens his mouth that is full of ......
I hate the life I have now, But I am happy and contended just that sometimes, People do make me feel so depress and feeling the world is not a place for me what if I commit suicide. I hate....
It is I that can make a difference in this world.. I hope GOD will give me the strength to carry on in this earthy form of life.. I can't tell nor express what I have in mind to others. Cause I don't trust them. Building trust is also important.
I hope God hears my prayers. I know he does..
I learn that life is not about us totally. the way we acted and think but be of deep thoughts and deep considerations to oneself and others..

MY LIFE

The impossibilities of lving.

Life really ain't fair..
People with wealth are not happy as the looked outwardly. same goes to the other class of the society
Living life that is not what we wished for, really sucks. furthermore, it brings sorrows and problems in our life.
Contentment is what is need to live life on this lustful earth to the fullest. Many might have this quotes in their mind ''Lord, please take my life because blah blah blah..''
Life is really hard if we push ourselves to hard to the unachievable of the presences. I have learn to patiently waits for something that I wished for to take places according to his will.
My life is full of discrimination and full of disappointed either in the form of physical or spiritual. Either both ways it hurts me the most are the attitude of self righteous they think they are.
The way mankind thinks needs to change. This will result in many of miracles of God to be down in their life.
Let me tell you some things they are must know. Having billions of money either by a rightful or unrighteous ways. I don't really care! Money is essential but making as a vital perspective in your life. Don't you feel weird? Working for the sake of Monetary treasure? If you are dead, those earthly things are attached with you spiritually. It is the work of your hearts that's countable.
If your money are spend on the needy, don't you get something out of it? Think outside of your greedy little hardcore mind. You will get blessing from those people that you have helped. They pray for your success in every form.
The joy of their will be shown on your face. With gratitude they will make you proud in return either in ten years or months. You will be surprise of the little things you said or contributed. It will enriched their life.
This is all I got to say. My grammar and my sentences might be wrong. But I will improve myself.
Amen to his works that he had done in my life all these years.